I’m not a negative person. Not usually, anyway. But lately I have been extremely negative when it comes to this job. I mean, realistically, I know I can’t walk into this job and be 100% competent within a couple of months. But to feel so stupid and ineffective every day gets to really wear on my nerves. Tonight I’ve been crying since I blew up when Paul was complaining about some bad teachers that we know. I don’t go to bed or wake up in the morning without feeling sick-anxious about the coming day. Now, I’m somewhat of a perfectionist (a messy one, if you can believe that) and a big-time overachiever (Paul says that I act just like some of his GATE kids), but mental exhaustion just isn’t my bag.
Sorry to have such a down post. I guess I’m just procrastinating a little bit. Apparently I don’t want to plan for tomorrow either.
